Second Birth Story - Jack Dalton

This birth story is tremendously different than Audrey's so if you read hers, then I hope you read this one. After writing Audrey's, I realized what a difference there was in the general feeling of the birth (not the BABIES, mind you, because I love them both the same.) I'll probably write a different post about that, though.

**WARNING- It's a birth story. It might get a little graphic. I mean, hey, it's birth. So, you can stop reading now if you're chicken! :) J/K but you will know me a lot better after this!**

I wanted a natural birth. And with this pregnancy being so close to my previous pregnancy, I was determined to use the knowledge I had gained from the first experience to make this next labor more of what I wanted. I was mostly determined that I WOULD NOT be induced, (haha, the thought did cross my mind whilst anxiously awaiting Jack's arrival.) I also decided that I would try to have a water birth. My friend Sheena told me very early in my pregnancy (thank goodness we went to that Derek Webb show) that the hospital I was at had started providing tubs for water births. I really think that this help keep me on the right track, motivating me even more to have a natural birth.

Leading up to my due date, I had noticed an increased amount of more intense Braxton-Hicks contractions. At first they were only coming more frequently, but then they also became a little more uncomfortable over time. About 3 weeks before my due date, the contractions became very regular. About 8 minutes apart for about an hour or 2. Nothing came of that, and actually I didn't even make any "progress" when I was checked at the doctor that week. I was still about 1 1/2 cm dilated/60% effaced/-3 station. Keep in mind, these are estimates, and they were actually very encouraging. My body was beginning the work of labor. The next week I was 2cm/65%/-3, all the while, I was still having these regular periods of contractions. They weren't too uncomfortable, unless I was sitting down, like in church. I had the hardest early labor contractions in church! Johnny agreed that this must mean he's going to be a preacher, haha.

So considering all this "progress" I was making, my last week before my due date was a bit excruciating, waiting and wondering and trying to plan out who was going to keep Audrey in case we had to go in the middle of the night. I know I shouldn't have let it get to me, but when people are asking you how much longer you have and "when are you going to pop" and things of the like, even 3 or 4 months or so before you're due, it kind of wears on you. (That's why I've decided to tell everyone my due date is actually my 42 week point if i get pregnant again. That way if i'm "late" it won't really feel that bad. Also, your "due date" is just an estimation. Sometimes babies need more time in there. I know this now.) So I decided to let the doctor strip the membranes again to get things going. I'm not completely opposed to this. I do think it's a good option when you're really actually "late" and you would like to induce naturally. I wasn't "late" though, even by the estimated due date, so if I could go back and change this decision, I would. It's so hard to be patient and let the baby come when it's good and ready, especially when "everyone" you're talking to is wondering why you're not being induced or having a C-section because the baby's going to be so big. I'm not saying if that was your circumstance that you were wrong, I'm just saying that was definitely NOT what I wanted. (This is also another good reason to have a doula that will encourage you through the waiting process. Matt could only say so much, he wanted that baby here too! He did encourage me to wait, though.) Also, I was having incredible back pain. That made it really hard to get everything done around the house, or walk around much to help induce. Anyway, so after the doctor visit, I was definitely having some regular contractions 1min- 1 min 30 sec contractions about every 5-8 minutes. I called my friend, Stephanie, to come over and stay with us that night, just in case we needed to go to the hospital. Well, they kind of petered out around midnight or so. That was Wednesday. The next 5 days were so frustrating. I got red raspberry leaf tea, I ate pineapple, hot stuff (not too much because my heartburn was so painful,) eggplant parmesan, I walked as much as possible, and even went so far as to by Black & Blue Cohosh, which I did not take. That stuff is straight alcohol! I was not that desperate yet, haha.

The weekend came and it was supposed to be very stormy on Saturday, so Mom and Dad came up to stay with us, just in case we needed to go to the hospital, and it was too stormy for them to come up. (If you know my parents, you probably laughed right then.) On Sunday morning, I woke up to some significant bloody show. I was so happy. I went almost skipping through the house saying, "I'm in labor, I'm in labor." I just knew that this was the start of the actual thing. We decided that Mom and Dad would take Audrey for the day down to Tuscaloosa and we would have some time to ourselves to labor/relax/get ready, whatever. Matt and I went on to church that morning, and like most Sundays, I had the most intense contractions up to that point during the sermon. After church, (this is when we were still in the Melheim Building) we strolled to Za Za's with our friends Ryan and Ashley, and I ate a good light lunch. It was the most wonderful smoked salmon bagel I've ever had. I want one now... Yeah, so then we went to our friends Jarrod and Stacy's son's 1st Birthday party. (Thankfully Allison took some pictures of me that day, because that was my last day to be pregnant! I'll post one of the pictures that she took.) But my contractions were not getting steadier. They were getting more painful, but they'd go through spells of consistent contractions, then nothing, and on and on and ON. Little did I know at the time, I was having prodromal labor. Which now that I know, I think it's kind of cool. It kind of helps you not notice the beginning parts of labor, that way you can go on with your normal activities thinking that these contractions are really no different than the ones you've had for months so maybe won't get too mentally tired trying to time contractions and wondering if you're really in labor, when all the while, you might actually be dilating without even knowing it! (I guess we'll see if I feel this way about it the next time I get pregnant!) I was getting discouraged with the fact that these contractions weren't really steady enough for me to call the doctor. Mom and Dad brought Audrey back to the house and I convinced them to stay here one more night because I was going to get up and go to the doctor tomorrow to see what was actually going on. I was driving myself crazy wondering "Is this labor?"

Monday morning, I woke up again with more bloody show. The excitement returned. I called my doctor and they "worked me in" a few hours earlier than my original appointment. So I got ready as fast as I could, and Matt and I went to the Dr's office. I left all my hospital bags at the house because I didn't want to jump the gun. (I have a habit of doing that, if you can't tell.) So while driving to the office, the contractions I was having were ok. Uncomfortable, but ok. Then as we were walking the long walk to the office, I definitely remember having to stop in the breezeway during a contraction. Not really because it was painful as much as it felt like things were very heavy between my legs.

We had to wait about 2 hours once we got to the office. Apparently, it was Birth Day :) because Dr. R was down in L&D. When he got to our room, he checked me and with the funniest look on his face said, "Seriously, Carla, you're like 7-8 cm. Ok. We're going to check you into the hospital now, if that's ok with you..." hahaha! FINALLY! I was actually in labor. You don't know what a feeling it was to know that I was actually in labor, not synthetically induced labor, but labor that my body actually started! It was awesome. So Matt and I made our way down to L&D, checked in, and then Matt headed back to the house to pick up our stuff.

Thankfully, because I had planned on having a water birth, I was assigned one of the "natural nurses". The hospital where I go does actually have a team of nurses who request to be on natural birth cases. This makes it SO much easier to have the birth experience you want. My nurse was awesome! She even stayed with me after her shift because she wanted to be there when the baby was born. (That meant a lot to me.) Also, this time I had a written and signed by my doctor, so that made it easier to remember what I actually wanted and didn't want. The nurse asked me a few questions and put in my hep-lock and sent me to walk around the hospital to try to progress labor a little more. Haha, that was fun. You always see on tv those women in gowns walking around the hospital having contractions. That was me! Actually, I wasn't really having many contractions. I think I was too excited to really progress much.

After about an hour, Matt came back and my doctor did too. Dr. R checked me and I was still about 8 cm. He asked if I wanted him to break my water because the bag of waters was bulging, sorry for the graphic description, but he said it was probably the only thing holding the baby back. (Now, if I could do it over again, I would have made a different decision here because of how quickly I felt the need to push after he broke my water. So if I had just let it happen on its own, maybe I wouldn't have had so many painful contractions and the urge to push would've hopefully not come til I was completely dilated.) I agreed to let him go ahead and break my water, which was not painful this time, btw. We decided that I would get up and use the restroom, then continue to walk the halls to progress my labor. Well, I hardly even made it to the bathroom before I was doubled over in pain. I called Matt in to help me and I said, "OK, I need to get in the tub, I need to push!"

Now we're getting to the good part, right?!?

That's what I thought, too. It's a little before 3, I think when I get into the tub. I immediately feel the urge to push. So, of course I do. I am getting into the zone! It's an awesome feeling, really. I was listening to my body, doing my relaxation breathing, relaxing through the contractions, not fighting them. The labor mix I made was playing, mostly worship songs, so it was really nice to dwell on those words during labor. I pushed when my body needed to push and I rested when I needed to. I even dozed a couple times in between contractions. Matt was sitting in front of me giving me words of encouragement. He did really great. He was an awesome coach.

The contractions were coming about every 2 minutes right now, I suppose. I really don't know because I wasn't focused on the time. But the contractions, or maybe just my nerves, combined with the heat of the water were making me a little nauseous, so Matt and the nurses got me some ice and some water and a small fan. Matt was shoveling ice onto me like every 5 seconds. Next time, we'll know to bring a cooler! But the warm water was doing it's job, too. I think it really kept my muscles relaxed. I was on my knees in the water swaying back and forth trying to bring the baby down.

A little after this, Allison arrived from work. I had asked her if she wanted to be present for the birth because after I had Audrey, we talked about how we both were interested in becoming doulas. She was so awesome. She helped Matt with whatever he needed, she helped pour the water and ice, she even offered to fix my pony tail for me, which I didn't let her because I so didn't care at that point. (I should've let her though, my hair looked crazy!) She even offered to take some pictures, which I also turned down like a nut. I'm so stubborn when I'm in labor (and most other times, too.) But she secretly took some anyway, and I am so thankful she did! I will post those also.

The nurse, I suppose, checked me and they called Dr. R down. I don't really remember, all I know is that at some point he showed up again, ha, (can you tell I was in the zone?!?) I do remember him saying to the nurse though, and this was really funny, "Is this ok, what I'm wearing?" and I thought, hmmm that's odd. I wondered why he was asking the nurse what he should wear, like he's never done this before. WELL, turns out it was the first water birth that he ever attended! He totally didn't tell us this prior to the birth. Maybe he thought that he'd attend one before mine, I don't know. But it was kind of cool to be the first! Anyway, he came down and we joked about Lost and I tried to get back to moving that baby down.

So we were all sitting around, waiting for this baby to be born, well, everyone else was, and I started to feel the pressure to make some progress. There were a lot of people in that room, Matt, Allison, the nurses, nursing students (which I did not mind that they were there, I thought it was kind of neat for them to be learning "off " me) and it had been about an hour and a half of me pushing. I knew that Dr. R. had other patients up in his office, poor pregnant women waiting to get out of the office so they could eat (at least that's always what I did after my appointments) so I asked Dr. R if he needed to go back up to his office. I know this is a funny thing for me to be thinking about, but I'm silly like that. I really started to wonder at this point if I was going to be able to do this.

I began to sway a little more trying to progress. I asked the nurses how I was doing and how the baby was doing because I had no idea. They told me I was doing great and encouraged me to keep going. They said they couldn't even tell when I was really having contractions except by looking at the monitor (they always seemed to check me with the monitor during a contraction, ha. They kept apologizing for that, but again, I was in the zone, so I didn't mind so much)... they probably say that to everyone. :) I probably should've gotten up out of the water and walked around or something, but I was afraid. I knew what it felt like when I was standing up and I did not want to feel that again. Fear of pain. It was hindering my labor. I started thinking about Audrey and how they had to use forceps and how her shoulders were stuck. I thought, "What have I gotten myself into? I'm not going to be able to get this baby out and because I don't have pain medication, I'm not going to be able to take it and I'm going to have to have a C-section." Self-doubt. This was hindering my labor. I began relying on myself and forgetting to ask God to help me through this. Hinder hinder hinder. I knew that I needed to voice my fear to Matt and ask him to intercede for me in prayer, but I didn't want to say my specific fear out loud, because I didn't want to speak it into being and dwell on it. So I just asked Matt to pray hard that God would take away my fear. Now, I'm sure this was hard for him. There was a room full of people and we were about to bust out and have some church, haha. But he did not care. He prayed and as soon as the words left his lips, I felt the baby drop down. I felt a peace come over me. I knew God was right there with us. It was an awesome, humbling feeling.

At this point, I think the nurses had a shift change, but like I said, the first nurse I had stayed around to see me to the end. (So sweet of her!) Anyway, one of them suggested that I change positions, so I was basically leaning back, squatting, and Matt was holding me up during my contractions. Poor thing, I know this was hard for him. He didn't know that he was going to have to give so much physically too. My legs were killing me, so I was really trying to stretch them out while I was in a different position. (See, I should've just stood up. So stubborn.) Now it was somewhere in the 5 o'clock hour, so I'd been pushing for almost 3 hours. Dr. R was back. I was ready for this to be over. I still was worried that I was not going to be able to do this, and I was worried about what it was going to feel like to push out a baby. Dr. R reminded me not to fight the pain, not to worry about it, but just let the baby come down. Well, I asked Matt to pray again, ha. He did and right after, I gave a big push, and there was the head! FINALLY! Dr. R told me to reach down and feel my baby. I think I said no, for some stupid reason. I did eventually, though. It was surreal. (And don't get me wrong, the head wasn't out completely, just the top of the head.)

I turned back around onto my knees because I had read that it was one of the best positions for birthing big babies, and I knew that Jack was going to be big. I went with what my body was telling me to do, again. Only push when my body needed to and SLOWLY let the baby come out. Dr. R said that he knew that this helped me to not have ANY lacerations (at least not fromt the head coming out.) He never thought that anything really helped with that but after this birth he said he was a believer.

Well, I'm not even sure how long this took but it kind of felt like forever. I asked Matt to pray one more time, and with this prayer, I again began to feel a major contraction. Then Matt said he had never heard such a noise come from me, like an Amazon woman! The nurses and Dr. R and Allison and Matt were all cheering me on, which encouraged me so much. I began to push very hard for the next few contractions. Suddenly, there he was! Out came the head. Then with the next contraction I pushed very hard, and nothing happen. Then Dr. R says, "Shoulder!" and they flipped me over like a beached whale! Once again, the nurses were kneading and pushing my stomach, trying to get the shoulders out. This was the only reason I had any laceration at all, and it wasn't even a 1st degree tear.

So after about 4 hours of pushing, at 6:42 pm, Jack Dalton was born, 10 lbs 9 oz, 23 1/4 in long! They laid him on my chest and the first thing I thought when I saw him was, "Wow, he looks so much like Audrey." He was awesome, and he looked like a one month old. So swollen and handsome, like a little old man, haha. They took him to the warming station, or whatever it is, to check him out since his shoulders were stuck. Matt made sure that I was ok, and then went to talk to his boy. As soon as Matt spoke to him, Jack began to respond. His cry was so soft at first. (And if you know him now, you know that is not the case!)

This was the hardest, but most gratifying experience of my life. I have never felt God move so... physically before. I swore right after I had Jack that I was not going to do that ever again, because, I'm not going to lie, it hurt and it was not easy. I've changed my mind since then ;)

Here are some pictures of me in labor and just a couple of my little man right after he was born.

Thanks for reading!

First Birth Story- Audrey Dylan

Ok, I've been needing to get the stories down for a while, especially Audrey's, before I forget them. You might be surprised how different they are.

**WARNING- It's a birth story. It might get a little graphic. I mean, hey, it's birth. So, you can stop reading now if you're chicken! :) J/K **

I feel like I might leave out some details, so this post might be edited several times. But here it goes:

The week before Audrey was due, I was beginning to worry about Matt's vacation time at Starbucks. He was acting manager at his store that was soon to close (during all of those shut-downs of Sbux stores) and they were being VERY difficult about not knowing when Matt would be out of the store. I began feeling pressure from corporate America to have a scheduled birth. (Shocking, I know.) They told Matt he would need to start his "vacation" on Audrey's due date. Well, that's a lot of pressure on my uterus! I had wanted to go natural, ALL-NATURAL, so I did not want to be induced. But I weighed the options and I really didn't want Matt to miss being at home with his new daughter. He only had a week, after all. I knew that every day he was off and we didn't have the baby would just be more and more stressful, and that is not what we needed. (If I had been thinking correctly, and known what I had known now, I would've told Matt to tell Starbucks that he would start his vacation at my 42 week point because my doctor would've definitely wanted me to be induced by then, and that would've given me time to go into labor on my own. And I'm pretty sure they would've just dealt with it if Matt had to be off before that. That was so dumb.)

So we scheduled Audrey to be induced on her due date, Jan. 20th. I saw the doctor the day before and he (**WARNING** hehe) swept the membranes to try to induce labor naturally. He knew I did not want to be induced with pitocin. All that day we walked and walked and ate things that were supposed to induce labor. (Honestly, we didn't do the one thing that probably would've helped out, if you know what I mean!) It was really cold that day, it even snowed. I think that I wore myself out, because I came home that night and felt horrible. I crashed on the couch. Woke up and had a fever. These are not the things you want right before the huge physical marathon you are about to encounter. Still, I got my things ready for the hospital. Matt and I prayed and prayed about our decision that night. He went to bed and I... well, I laid in bed that night, and prayed even more. When we woke up at 5 am to call Labor and Delivery to see if there was an open bed, we prayed that if this was the wrong decision, that there would not be "any room for us in the inn." Well, there was. So with almost a heavy heart, we left for the hospital. The whole ride there all I could think about was my baby girl and what she might look like and tried to wrap my brain around the fact that I was about to be a MOTHER. Heavy stuff.

So we arrive at L&D and they strip me down and stick me up. And although I had pre-registered, asked me a million questions. When the nurse put the monitor on me she said, "Oh, you're having contractions." I said, "Oh, so that's what those are. I couldn't tell if it was a Braxton-Hicks contraction, a real contraction, or just gas, haha." (And knowing what I know now, I have prodromal labor, and I had been having those contractions for months. So that doesn't mean that I was necessarily going to have the baby soon, it just means that my body does the preliminary work of labor a little stronger than normal. It's kind of cool, actually. In Jack's birth story, this will play a key part.) Anyway, I really didn't enjoy my time with this nurse. She was totally unsupportive about me wanting to go natural, even while being induced. And in my ignorance, I totally wasn't prepared for the "battle for natural" that I was going to face during the whole process. I told the nurse that Dr. Ross, my primary OB, told me that it was fine if I got up and moved around during labor even after the pitocin. Of course, I did not have this in writing and he wasn't there when this nurse wanted to put in my IV, so of course I was stuck in the bed for the rest of the day. (Things I wish I could go back and do over...) At this point, I kind of conceded to the fact that if I couldn't get up and manage my pain, I was probably going to get an epidural.

Dr. Ross comes in around 7am, I think and says that I look about the same as yesterday, so he's going to break my water to help me progress a little faster. That was not enjoyable. He told me that was the most painful internal that I would have all day. He was right. So my pitocin is up and going at this point and so was the Presidential Inauguration, btw. It took a couple of hours for the pit to really start working and for me to really start to feel the contractions. Around noon-ish I asked for them to come and check me because I was starting to get uncomfortable and I wanted to know how much progress I had made. (They promised they would not do any internals unless I asked for it so that I would not be bothered by them, which I really respected.) I knew that I was NOT going to get an epidural before 4 cm and I was sure that I was past that point. Ha, I wasn't. I was at 3 1/2cm. So close. So I sat back and thought to myself, great, we're going to be here for a while. But I was more determined than ever to take that pain head on.

By that point, Matt, my mom and my friend, Kristen, were in the room. (OH YEAH, and at some point during this time, the woman from admitting came in demanding my half of the bill, and in a rather unfriendly, I'm a repo-woman kind of way. That was super annoying. I was in LABOR and she was hounding me and my family about money. Like she needed to get it before the baby was born, because if they didn't, I could just go home.) Anyway, we had all been casually talking and watching the inauguration, but like I said before, the pain was getting more and more intense. I'm pretty sure they upped the pit around this point and put in a Foley, but I don't remember for sure. Either way, I could not take the talking anymore. I definitely needed low lights and quiet. So, trying to be as polite as possible, I asked my mom, haha, to quiet everyone down. I asked for some pain medicine because I knew the epidural was coming and I HATE needles, especially huge ones in my back that could paralyze me permanently. :) (Praise the Lord for them, but I did not want to get one.) I really need to get my hospital records so I can look at what actually happened and when and what drug they gave me at this point. It was terrible. All it did was make me feel loopy and I still felt every bit of every contraction. But possibly the one thing it did (which, I actually don't think it was the drug, because I did it without drugs when I had Jack, but to give it the drug the benefit of the doubt) was help me snooze in between contractions, which were now coming every 30 seconds-2 minutes at this point. I was in the zone, I tell ya. I was using my relaxation breathing, I was imagining my contractions moving my baby down, I was dreaming about holding her in my arms. It was cool. I'm sure everyone in the room was a little uncomfortable though because all they could do was look at the silent tv and listen to this moaning woman in the background. I finally came to a point where I could not take the pain anymore and I asked for an epidural.

I deduced later that it had been about an hour and a half since they checked me last, but at that point I had really no concept of time. So, they didn't even check me and they called the anesthesiologist in and kicked everyone else out of the room. They told Matt that I would need about 15 min after the epi for it to set in so he should take the time to go get something to eat, make some calls, etc. So the dr. came in and got set up and tried to wait for a point in between my contractions, but like I said, they were coming so fast, that it was very difficult. I think I did pretty well through all this, especially since I didn't have Matt or mom in with me to help calm me down. Right after that I don't remember who checked me, the nurse or the doctor, but I was 10 cm. Why they didn't check me before-hand, I don't know. I wouldn't have gotten the epidural if I had known I was so close to the end. (Another good reason to have a doula!) It was around 2:00ish pm and Dr. Ross told me that I could start pushing. Well, Matt wasn't back in the room yet! I tried to call him on my phone, but it was either dead or didn't have service or something, so Dr. Ross even let me use his phone. Well, after that I realized Matt's phone was still in the room, (duh, we were listening to my labor playlist on it) haha. Matt and mom finally came back and they hiked my dead legs up in the stirrups and I began "pushing." I say that because, when you're dead from the hips down, you can't tell what real pushing feels like. I don't think I got into the real pushing position until about an hour of non-productive pushing.

I'm a little cloudy on when they noticed this, but they saw a little trace of meconium in the amniotic fluid, so when I began pushing, NICU also arrived to check Audrey out after she was born. Add on to that, I still had a fever when I was admitted, so they were afraid I could pass that on to Audrey, too. So these factors, plus the fact that I was pushing and pushing and not getting anywhere, were slightly leading down the road to the big C. I had stressed the fact with Dr. Ross several times that I DID NOT want a C-section, so I feel he was in my corner on the issue. Now whether or not he gave me the best advice on how to avoid that is debatable (one unnecessary intervention leads to another and on and on,) but once we were actually in the situation where I was all numbed up and pushing, i really think he was trying to keep me out of the OR. Around 4:00 pm, we had finally made progress enough to see the head. It was down to the final round, and I was just praying and praying that God would give me strength to get this baby out of me soon!

Dr. Ross said he was going to get the forceps because her heart rate was dropping and she needed to get out. I asked him to give me just one more contraction to try to push her out. He did, but I couldn't. So, he gave me an episiotomy and got out the forceps. Audrey came out all blue and Matt said that this was one of the scariest moments of his life. I don't think he expected to see her so discolored. (I've seen A Baby Story before, so this did not surprise me.) I could slightly see the top of her head. They had talked about getting me a mirror, but I suppose since NICU was there and they were probably all expecting a C-section, they forgot and didn't offer me one. I still had the shoulders to push out, and those were not coming out successfully at all. Once again, I was praying and praying and could tell by the concern in Dr. Ross' voice that it was getting a little serious. He told me, "Ok, with this next push, I'm really going to need you to get her out. Push as hard as you can." So I did. And nothing happened. Then I see him tell the nurse, (which, incidentally, was not the nurse I didn't like, but another one that came in during shift change) something and with the next contraction I pretty much had double the staff around me and the nurse on top of my belly pushing and kneading downward. Honestly, it all didn't register what was happening, I just kept thinking, "Should she be on top of me like this, she's pregnant too!" Dr. Ross then says, "Push, Katie, PUSH!" and I thought, "Why is he calling me Katie? Doesn't he know my name after all 9 months of this?!?" haha. Luckily I didn't say anything because I realized after the fact that he was talking to my nurse, telling her to push on my belly. Audrey had shoulder dystocia.

And PRAISE THE LORD, after all of that, out came sweet Audrey Dylan, weighing a whopping 9lbs 8oz, 21 1/4 inches long at 4:08 pm. And so swollen and beautiful that I couldn't believe she was mine! And the NICU nurses checked Audrey out and she was healthy, the only complication was her elevated temperature from the temp that I had while in labor, but even that didn't turn out to last. She nursed very well and she was super alert. She took maybe three 10 minute naps the next day, all day. (Yeah, 30 minutes. All day.)

2 year Catch-up

I have so much to blog about, I don't even know where to begin. There's no way I can catch up on all of that missed time, but I will try to mention some highlights.

When I wrote my last post (before the one about coming back to blog,) I had just found out that I was pregnant with Audrey. That's what that post was about, really. And that's why I stopped blogging. We didn't have internet at our house, and I started to have morning sickness about 5 weeks in, so with that and being so tired after work, I just didn't feel like spending my nights on the internet at Starbucks anymore.

We weren't expecting to get pregnant right away, but we did. I prayed and prayed about it because just months before. Matt and I felt that I should stop the Pill. We just felt that God was in control of our family and that if He wanted us to get pregnant, or not get pregnant, He WAS in control, and we didn't need to spend the $50 a month and put all of those extra hormones in my body to try to control it ourself. Not to say that we didn't use other methods, but we still just didn't feel at peace about the Pill. (I hope that makes sense.) And I was ok with not having that 99.9% guarantee of not getting pregnant until I switched jobs. I didn't want to get pregnant and have to quit my new job as a nanny so soon. But I knew that if I truly believed that that is what God told us to do, then I needed to believe in it when it wasn't "convenient" for me.

So after being off of the pill for 4ish months, we found out I was pregnant! I was very excited. Matt was... shocked. Seriously, for days, maybe even up until like 3 months after we had Audrey. I think he still couldn't believe that he was a dad. I'll post how I found out and told him. He still gives me grief about it, haha.

Post #2 down! I'm on a roll! Ok, maybe not yet, but it's a start.

Back from the Blog Land of the Dead

Alright... I know what you're thinking. You're thinking, sure, this isn't going to last very long. There will be a couple of posts, then the blog will fall back into her own oblivion. This may be true, but I'm really going to try to keep that from happening.

I need a place to post my thoughts and happenings in my life. I need a place to sort things out so that they're not just forgotten in my poor memory. So, I pledge to you, my two followers (at this point, I'm still shocked I have those,) that I will try to keep you entertained, informed and genuinely interested in my blog. Or at least give you a post to read every now and then. :)