2 year Catch-up

I have so much to blog about, I don't even know where to begin. There's no way I can catch up on all of that missed time, but I will try to mention some highlights.

When I wrote my last post (before the one about coming back to blog,) I had just found out that I was pregnant with Audrey. That's what that post was about, really. And that's why I stopped blogging. We didn't have internet at our house, and I started to have morning sickness about 5 weeks in, so with that and being so tired after work, I just didn't feel like spending my nights on the internet at Starbucks anymore.

We weren't expecting to get pregnant right away, but we did. I prayed and prayed about it because just months before. Matt and I felt that I should stop the Pill. We just felt that God was in control of our family and that if He wanted us to get pregnant, or not get pregnant, He WAS in control, and we didn't need to spend the $50 a month and put all of those extra hormones in my body to try to control it ourself. Not to say that we didn't use other methods, but we still just didn't feel at peace about the Pill. (I hope that makes sense.) And I was ok with not having that 99.9% guarantee of not getting pregnant until I switched jobs. I didn't want to get pregnant and have to quit my new job as a nanny so soon. But I knew that if I truly believed that that is what God told us to do, then I needed to believe in it when it wasn't "convenient" for me.

So after being off of the pill for 4ish months, we found out I was pregnant! I was very excited. Matt was... shocked. Seriously, for days, maybe even up until like 3 months after we had Audrey. I think he still couldn't believe that he was a dad. I'll post how I found out and told him. He still gives me grief about it, haha.

Post #2 down! I'm on a roll! Ok, maybe not yet, but it's a start.

THREE HOURS!

So, I finally put up some info on my profile. I didn't for a long time because I had a myspace and facebook, and it just seemed redundant. So, if you want, you can read some of that. I didn't write about me because for some reason, it seems creepier to write it on here, even though all my blogs are...yes, about me. You don't have to be my friend to view this. Not that I get a lot of "stalkers" nowadays, but...you never know! ha. That blog counter DOES keep going up.

I'm ready to go home! I'm at my old job, just filling in for a 3-hour Saturday. I figured it was the last time I would be able to make a quick buck on a Saturday morning, so why not do it? I have to say though, this is painful. It's half-way through, and wow, I'm hungry and I want to GOOOO!

So, I've spent most of the morning trying to find the name of a book I used to read as a child and loved. I wanted to give it as a birthday gift to one of the children I nanny now. I couldn't remember the title or author. All I could remember is what it was about and the little characters in the book. I have to give props to the google. I found it. Richard Scarry, "Cars, Trucks, and Things that Go." I used to love the illustrations, and I remember the story wasn't too emotional, like that Corduroy book! (I loved Corduroy, but it made me sad.) I used to have "My Golden Book of Manners" book illustrated by Scarry. My mom bought it for me, and it taught me so much. Matt still wonders how I know that it's not good manners to slurp your soup in public.

Speaking of nannying things, I have learned SO much already, in just the first 3 days. Mostly I've learned that I have a lot to learn. ha. I love my job, love love love. It's so awesome to have the opportunity to be involved with raising a child. And the two that I keep are so sweet. I love it when they say "Cah-la" and when they get big smiles and laugh at me. And I can't wait til all these things happen more frequently! The transition from mommy, to babysitters, to me has been hard for them. I hope that soon, things will settle down and become more routine for them to see me. I want to do the best for them at everything. I want to inspire them, challenge them, educate them, comfort them, love them. THIS, and only this, makes me want to go back to school. I want to be the best at my job!

I just praise the Lord for giving me this life. I don't deserve all of His blessings. It's everything that I've wanted up to this point. And I have a while for the rest of it...(Matt, that means kids, don't worry.)

"God carries in His heart the fullfillment to all the desires that He has placed in yours." - George McDonald, paraphrased from Psalm 37:4

Blondie In the Flesh!

So I dyed my hair. It's crazy I know!! But I've never been blonde before so I wanted to do it while my hair was short. I can't believe it's my hair. That's why I chose that song as my title. (I'm sure if I didn't mention the Blondie reference, no one would notice it.) It has taken some time to actually get used to it...well really, I'm still not used to it. I mean, it's SO different.

Anyway. So with my new look is a new me. I have noticed that I'm starting to be a little more honest with people. Maybe my dark hair was keeping me subtle and non-confrontational. But I've suddenly had this burst of bluntness. I want to be someone people know as an honest, trustworthy person. I want to be that person that if someone wants an honest answer, they come to me. With that said, I do want to develop some tact. I want to be able to give the answer/opinions/thoughts in a gentle, considerate manner. And if I start being honest with others, I have to be honest with myself and expect people to confront me with the truth too. That's a scary place sometimes. I mean, you don't always know what people think of you. You just kind of hope for the best.

So, feel free to leave some honest comments about my hair :) But maybe wait a couple of days after you see the picture, let it soak in. I had to. ha.

OH OH OH, also a new OFFICE on Thursday!!! I'm so excited. But I'll try to not over-expect...

AND, my new job starts in 2 days! Please keep praying for me and Matt.